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Time flies so fast.. 4 or 5 years ago i was with bunch of friends and we we’re care less of what’s going to be our future then,, all we know was to snoop ’sa patio’ which we fondly call it as our tambayan.. But, now, those people who would just stare at us and would think we we’re that kind of people who has not ambitions in life, a yell for them.. BOOOO!!!

Oct 8, 2006. This was the day i left being single. Yes! I am married now. I’ve been through different relationships, and i must say, what i have now is the best i have.. Sooner, in 3 months time, we’ll be a family, isnt great?!

Can’t wait to be with our baby boy.. And been thinking now for our son’s name..

Yes, been into many relationships.. i admit it, im always a loser.. i mean, i never find a true HOME, but this time, i may not the be the perfect girl for him, am trying to be one.. yes, kinda hard, but have to do it.. i must, or else i will be a loser again.. in fact, i am so happy right now..

i can’t even deny the fact that i am so much overjoyed.. and its true..

I never thought i could be this happy in my life.. i mean everything falls into place. Yes! i might say, i am super in love with aguy i thot i cudnt be mine.. way back then in high school i was the type of girl who would care less.. i mean, so lux with what’s happening around. So naive..  I dont give any reason a guy would fall for me.. by then, i was so happy being with friends,.,

Good thing i was like that before, if not, i wouldnt be happy right now.. i am.. and i am so happy…

Thanks to you..

Before, i believe evrything was for a choice,… NOW, i believe evrything will fall to dstiny…

Pain has brought me a lesson,.. a lesson i must learn from it.. I was really a stubborn freak geek gurl.. i nver stop unless i have done the thing i wanna do.. a risk-taker as my friends would often comment on me. the hell i care if i would end up wounded, stabbed, or raped… Don’t take it literally.. I have been to a relationship, which i can consider the best thing ive ever done.. ive conquered evrythin..anything..just for him.. and the thing is, i can’t let go off him that easy although he has done sumthin that a gurl would hate and curse..  just to compensate the feelings i have,pain and hatred, i just think that i was just overwhelmed by the love he had shown me and the care he had for me..So, it was easy for mr to overcone and let him go….Now, m a survivor… i was stabbed, raped and wounded.. but ended up healed….

MORAL LESSON: some men were born to fool around. hahahahah….

DUH!? Do i deserve some pain? afterall ive done and deprived myself of a lot of things just to love him… and this would be the payback??? Ive been so down and so broke for the past 1 week to be exact.. i was with him for quite sometime.. if my calculation is right.. approxiamtely 2years and 2 months..would that be a serious relationship??? I would accept everything or any reason he has just to break me.. but he should be man enuf to do that..

Biiterness and hatred.. Damn!! This is what i hate when moving on.. Bitterness.. Im so bitter right now.. Insecurities and all.. Ive lost my self confidence.. Hatred coz evrytym i think of what  he had done to me.. oh my gosh!! i wanna eat him whole..Nwei, i have to move on.. I wont be this strong if not for him.. tnx nweiz..

To all the men out there.. JUST BE MAN ENOUGH!!!!!!

GROW OLD…

i wanna make you smile
whenever you’re sad
carry you around
when you’re arthritis bad
all i wanna do is grow old with you

so let me do the dishes in our kitchen
sink
put you to bed when you’ve had too
much to drink
oh, i could b d girl who grows old with
you
i wanna grow old with you

Its always been a question on how men will be contended with what they have in life.. and i’m always so much in between of contentment and most likely not contended.. you really can’t figure out my attitude is.. but all i can say is, its really boring if you find contentment.. i firmly believe that i cant be satisfied with  i have if i ask for more, ryt>/ thats the tym one person becomes boring with lyf..

And i am really bored with my life.. i have someone ryt now, but i dunno if he can be there for the rest of our lives coz like wat im thinkin ryt now, i he asks for more.. and i know myself cant gve more than i have ryt now.. i mean, im loving him the most that i cud love a person, but wat if he asks for more..Dont u think its boring..

hehehehehe… I am bored!!!! get it????

Itz always a question why we, gurls, always have the most insecurities in life.. This may not been supported by any research or any scientific basis but i can only tell this through experience i guess or by merely observing others,.. You know what, those gurls who are committed in a relationship where in you have someone in your life, and you love most, these people has the most insecurities in life.. i may not speak as in behalf of them but i think what i think right now is basically true..

Itz like this, when you’re so much in love with your partner, you tend to be secured with him, but there are really times or shall i say, most of the time that men reallly fool around.. i mean, its not that i generalize them, but i know some who really do that.. and thats the time we gurls think of our problems regarding them, but actually we are giving them all our attention.. and we tend to forget to save for ourselves..now, the problem comes, when they fool around, we ask ourselves if something wrong with us.. is the other gurl he’s foolng around prettier or slimmer than us.. ryt?? i mean, now you’re having you’re insecurities..    DAMN!!

Hehehehehe! I juz cant write anythin…Im not saying gurls cant live without men..OF COURSE WE CAN!!!!